Escape from Hades

[trainthruhell]

This is really hard. Good days and bad days, good hours and bad hours.

I think the hardest part is to keep from spying. I have found sex toys, and condoms in her wallet. She does not know I have found these and in our conversations she tells me there is no OM. We both live in the same house, if there is proof of an OM, then I'll ask her to leave, my rules! My God, we have a 16-year old D that is with us.

This is so incredibly confusing to me, and I hope I am on the correct path here. She says she does not like the silent treatment, that if I want to drive her away further, then just keep it up. So I speak when spoken to, and we have conversations but it's usually about her life and work. I pray every day for us.

I need to let God do his work.