Snodderly~ Pretzel I shall not be, you either like me the way I am or not at all (the new me, not the old depressed me). LOL Of course he never really told me to change anything anyway.... just stuck with his "don't feel that way anymore" "no emotional connection" crap.
I have decided I don't feel bad about saying he should feel guilty, he very well should. He has no idea what he's giving up for absolutely no reason.
As always thank you so much for taking time to comment,I do really appreciate it!
T~ Thank you so much for your kind words, they really mean a lot to me. I've read them several times this past week, they were just what I needed.
I have been feeling lately that no amount of yoga breathing will help between MLC man and work! LOL
AJM~Thank you very much! You are totally right about "It's always hard to see when in the thick of things..." I'm finally able to truly let things go.... like anger.... not there much ever.... hurt, disappointment, heartbreak, yes but they don't rule my life, it's more of a sadness anymore of his stupidity and throwing us away. But I'm finding more joy again, and that is priceless.
Trust me, I won't mess with God's plan, he knows waaaay better than me, even if I want to think otherwise sometimes.
~updates~ On the home front not much to report, H allegedly went to a work dinner last night, he did tell me the evening before he would be late. I asked like midnight late? H said no like 10. I said ok. Then casually asked if he was going to a movie or something. He actually didn't bite my head off and said no work dinner. I just said ok.
Funny, he avoided work dinner's like the plague before, doesn't like those people remember? Oh wait, in MLC gotta impress people that don't matter, I forgot. He did get home at 10, which always makes me laugh since "pappy" (LOL) is usually in bed between 7:30 and 8:30. *shrugs* Whatever.
I stumbled onto some info this evening indicating H has another e-mail account I didn't know about. You know what, it didn't even phase me. I'm just like whatever, I don't actually care. I'm just sort of numb to it all at this point.
Don't get me wrong, it still baffles me that someone can treat another person like this, especially when the other person is treating them with kindness, patience, love, respect etc. But you know what,if he does decide to continue his plan to leave, it is totally his loss. He doesn't have any idea how good he really has it or what he's throwing away. I'm a good person and a darn good wife.... ohh to be appreciated...but right now that doesn't even matter so much because I know my worth.... and even if no one else appreciates me or values me God does and that is enough.
