Trying really hard to be Thankful today...

[Sweetbriar]

Accuray...Im not sure why he would think I havent let go...I mean, I know I havent, but from his POV I have not called, texted, emailed, pursued, or asked anything of him since before Halloween. Now, I know that isnt that long....but I have done great with GALing and NC...We have seen each other only once in that time frame.

I read so many posts on here where the WAS and the BS see each other frequently because of kids..and I wonder, if I should make myself more seen? I usually make plans every Wed night when he comes here to get the kids and he rarely sees them otherwise.

Adinva..I totally agree with you about my girls. I did talk with them last night about the way they talk to dad, but ultimately, they do their own thing. I dont think they have any thoughts that them acting that way will bring dad back. They know that dad is long gone. They just have naturally lost respect from him...they have sadly seen too much and heard too much these past 8 months and because of their age, they have formed their own opinions. I do wish that my H would talk to them more about it...maybe that would help? But because of the lack of time they spend together, it never reaches to that point. It makes me very sad, as they were very, very close to him and I still question how easy it is for him to walk away from them. I mean, me too, but honestly, I NEVER thought he would run from them also? They were his entire life...and now....not so much:( Saddens me more than anything...that he would chose to let those relationships go as well. And once again, all because he met OW. She has taken precedence over everyone and everything.

I havent been able to shake my sadness today. I think the stupid text he sent made me sad. Maybe I dont need to know when he is thinking of me...but I must say between the anniversary email and the random texting he sends, most recently with the last one, its the most civil contact we have had since he left. I just wish he was thinking of me and the baby more than once in a blue moon...I think of him still all the time and the holidays are making it worse:(

SB