I understand the validation part (boy do I understand!!!) but see? You went out. You are NOT supposed to have fun or be happy...you are paying for sins and must be miserable. You have to decide if you want to live this way. You say that you like to be in an R, maybe you need to unpack that a bit further. What is it that you need?
It is interesting to me, because I don't necessarily need and R, I think H does though, and it would be valuable to see the other side. I would like an R, but don't necessarily need one, I am pretty comfortable alone.
The coaching thing sounds good...can you scrape up the money at all? You could GAL and it would be an "acceptable" activity..
