What went on with her IC is her business and if she wants to share it with you fine. But you're right, you shouldn't ask.
It seems you are assigning a meaning to what she does, without knowing the truth and then causing yourself pain over this meaning.
You're operating from a place of fear. Let it go. Remind yourself you don't know what happened or what she's thinking so why beat yourself up about it?
Let go of the fear, remind yourself that no matter what happens, you can do this.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss