I actually went back and typed the X before submitting. I am trying to get myself acclimatized since nothing much is changing.
I can also empathize with the guilt that you are feeling. While I try not to play the blame game at my end, I know that I AM to blame for some of the failings in our relationship. While I logically know that maybe the outcome would not have changed, I cannot always keep my brain from heading into "what if..." territory. And that brings on the guilt. How do I abandon him now?
You are in an especially tough situation because your H is home.
Hang in there - maybe this is a great time for the "do nothing" strategy and just keep a pulse on your feelings. It sounds like you may be in for a rough patch for the next little while. We're in your corner.
