This roller coaster goes on...
Yesterday morning W showed caring in the morning. Hugs, kisses, etc.

I met with her stepdad, BIL, and brother yesterday for dinner. Just a quick guys out event. I had a good time.

When I got home it was immediately clear that something was bothering W. Her rings were back off. I made a joke. She didn't laugh. I said, "I'm funny dammit!" with a smile. She said, "You are. That's one of the many things I love about you." It sounded insincere.

We went to bed and she barely touched me. She held onto my thumb for a couple minutes. No kisses. No "I love you." These two were meaningful the last few nights. They used to be a routine. Before BD we didn't go to bed without saying ILY and kissing.

She barely spoke a word to me this morning. I tested the waters by tapping her butt with my lunch bag as I walked by. Something that would get a response on a "good day." It received ZERO response.

I hate that on Saturday she said she wanted to stay married. But by Wednesday she's acting this way.

I feel angry, hurt, and sad. I guess I obviously got my hopes up. It's like my emotions are back to the 2nd week after BD. The feelings are very similar.

I guess I need to continue to detach. I just don't know how.


M34 W35
S5 S2
T10 M6
on/off over the years including her A
Recently-
Nov 2015 bomb
Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling
Feb bomb
March-April Reconciling
May - bomb
Mid-May I tell her I'm done