H had a faux pas, Freudian slip! He took off of work last night to hang out with me, really seemed to want my attention, fun. flirty, and strangely hungry, after having 2 wks of rebellious starving.
He was intently looking at a paper, really contemplating what he was going to do with the information. I made a joke saying: your really into that page, he laughed confirming it was very interesting and did not want to put it down to start the movie just yet.
I reached over asking for the lighter in his other hand when he gave me the paper, I looked at him laughing - he realized his mistake, then laughingly he said "see that's how much ILY I was going to give up reading my page"!
Ok! Not said in any context in which I would take seriously, but wow, for a moment it was so nice to hear! Tear!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
