Lost I was the same way. My S19 and S17 are my everything. I could not stand the thought of not seeing them everyday when they were as young as yours. Yea, they get on your nerves sometimes, but they are worth it in every way! Hold on to them for as long as you can and don't use them againist each other!

Hugs to you!

M-47, H-46
M24, T29
S19, S17
OW since 2007
Fighting ever since
H left 8/12
H home 11/12
still seeing OW