MLC, affair, internet pictures, we're a mess

[cantslowdown]

I understand your reasoning, but I have two very small children and they're needs do come before mine. They need her around. I want things to be as normal as possible for them. I am not going to scar them for life by pushing her out of the house in a fit of anger. She is already shocked as I have already stood up to her about a multitude of things that I never verbalized before. I can't stop her from seeing him. I believe that is not even the DB way, if I am reading correctly.

My 180 is becoming a better man (for me) and yes, I do stand up to her and tell her what I think, but I am not going to pick fights (I used to do that and obsess all the time) that we've already had and no one has budged. I am no longer this person who felt out of control with his life. I have set things right with myself and I am taking this train in whatever direction I choose. If she wants to be on it, she knows what she has to do. If she does not, things will take their natural course soon enough. The turmoil you are asking me to put my children through is not worth it. I'd rather be patient and firm. A 180 for me would be not blowing up and yelling about it.

I am no longer arguing about whether she should see him, we already know she SHOULDN'T. Now I am working to become the man I always envisioned myself to be, but was always to cowardly to live as (wanted to make sure I had others approval).