Making it work, for me

[sweetbabyred]

Yesterday we had a fairly decent convo by text. He says he's waiting on a bonus to pay me back. I told him I'd take anything and he could pay small amounts at a time.

I also asked about SS, to see if I needed to ship his gift, and he says he'll think about letting me see him. I can't believe that he'd keep SS from me, but I just let it go. No use arguing about it when he's not even in the state yet. That's a 180 for me.

Today I noticed a missed call from H at work. I just assumed it was a mistake and didn't pay it much attention. A little while ago, my phone rang and it was him. I just let it go to voice mail and a few minutes later got a text saying he was sorry for calling and disturbing me and he'd never call again. So dramatic!

I waited 20 min or so and sent him a text saying he didn't disturb me, but I was busy, but for him to feel free to contact me if he needed to.

He just replied "I'll stick to text message. never mind. have a good night".

What is going on in his head? I'll never know and honestly don't really care that much right now. I'd always answer his calls immediately, but that was when I was really his wife. He's not going to get that kind of attention from me anymore. Not unless he dedicates himself to working on the marriage.

I think I may have dropped the rope. I'm not sure if he'd ever be able to convince me that he could be a good husband again. That's sad, but I know I can move on if I need to. For now, I'll continue to stand and work on myself.