Somewhere in the background of my mind I hear Steppenwolf playing.."on a magic carpet ride..."
Be careful with patterns. That's another way to have an expectation. Patterns will change with him and if you are "used to it" it may throw you for a loop. You'll see.
Accept the idea that he left but...didn't/won't. It's a little easier.
God didn't put you on this earth to wallow in craziness and suffering any longer than you need to. Know that it won't last, Kimmerz. It really won't. It won't because you weren't made to let it last.
Silly as it sounds, you will be the one that is long gone before it is all said and done. Even then he'll try to assert control and insert himself in your life at times. But you'll learn to keep him out and in time he'll go the rest of the way and hopefully figure himself out.
When you're ready, you'll do these things.
As for the similarities.. well, there are just so many variations that can be in a given situation. I think that accounts for so many similarities in these stories on the board.
I feel sorry for my xw sometimes. But at a distance, lol. And not sorry enough to want anything to do with her. But I see the craziness and the destruction and I know that's a big hole to fill in her life. I hate that the same way I hate it for the mailman..now. I used to be too close, but as I get further away, I see it differently and know it's her journey. I do wish her well and sometimes, I wish she'd leave me alone
It's a strange and wonderful life. Buckle up!
Peace,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
