TheUF - Changing gears - Dropping the rope?

[theUF]

Spent time with S today and had a ball.
X called to ask if I could bring some of her stuff when I dropped off S. I told her she could come get it if it was important as I don't want to constantly bring things over. The previous time she came by I told her to take everything and not some here and some there. She didn't have room, so alot was left.

Anyway, she was not far away so she would come get it.

Me and S eat dinner and play. I hear nothing from X and I figure she can take him home when she comes to get the things, as it's getting late anyway. When bed time is only an hour away I txt her telling she can take him home when she comes but it's starting to get late.

She replies she forgot and is already home(20 min away). What??

The original agreement was that I would deliver him, but it's still strange how she could just forget about stopping by and not care about when S is coming. Really untypical her. I felt angry, but let it go. Didn't answer, just drove to her place.

(I would normally have gotten angry about this, made a big deal about it and we would end up in a fight. Today I didn't make a big deal about it and let my anger go. And the outcome was; we had a relativly good time. I'm glad letting go of anger comes more naturally now than before)


When I got there she invites me in and we chit chat and laugh for a bit.
She asks if I want to join in on giving S a bath and I do. We sing and play, S is enjoying it alot.
I change him and put him to bed. Sing a bit for him.
Same as a couple of days ago we lay down on each side of S. She even touched my hand by fault when cuddling with S, but super quickly pulled away.

They are both sick and S had troubles falling asleep so after some time I tell them goodbye and leave.

I get a txt an hour later telling he's been sleeping really heavy since I left and is doing good(even with a smiling emoticon, haven't seen those in a while LOL), as well as a question about what furniture I want to buy from her.

My problem is....what is this?
Is she kind of cake eating?
Why does she want me to stay for a while everytime I come by?
I mean, she gives out no signals of wanting to R(not physically nor otherwise), but she obviously wants me around to some extent.
Does she just enjoy my company or maybe she has some weak doubts?

I think it's a liberating feeling for her standing on her own two feet, I guess that affects her in some way or another.

Don't get me wrong, I'm just happy for every minute I get to spend with S, but at the same time it can take a toll "playing family".

I'm in the dark, and confused.

I'm trying to figure out what direction to take now.
I have lapses of wanting to tell her look, I care for you and still have feelings for you but if you want me gone I have to start moving on.
It would be like dropping the rope, but maybe I should give it more time. Still just been two months.