M, first of all let me say you have some of the best of the best posting to you - Cat, Snodderly and AJM.
Secondly, you did not offend me in any way. We are all on here to help each other.
I want to tell you that how you are feeling and what you are thinking are all part of this process. As we begin to look inward, take the rose colored glasses off in some cases and become honest with ourselves, very often we see our marriages more clearly.
The real thing I wanted you to see is that the most important things are to change your mindset and detach.
When you begin to accept that you and only you are in control of your life, it is freeing.
You can take the time to really figure out what your future might look like.
That is all that I meant with my other post. Take back your power. Let him blow in the wind.
I understand the money situation all too well. But I didnt let it stop me from visualizing what might like could be.
So, he is going to do what he is going to do. We are more interested in you.
Yoru children are mostly grown. They are becoming independent.
And maybe at the end of all this, you will decide that you dont want to be with your h anymore. And that's ok.
I just think that while you're sorting all that stuff out, it's best to just let it lie until you know exactly how you feel.
So, make a bucket list. Start with really small things. It could be anything from something you want to change about you to going through a room in the house and getting rid of stuff you dont really want.
Let us get to know who M is. I already see a wicked sense of humor.
