New to the forum, WAH 10/3/12

[notsurewhat2do]

H left signed deed last night, but also left papers for me to sign to take me off the checking accounts he used. I didn't sign them. It just didn't feel right. I know he signed the deed of the house to me, but he agreed to that. And it doesn't matter, right now we are still legally married and if something happended to me, he would get it by default (unless my parents faught it - but he would get sole custody of DD and they probably wouldn't make her leave the house). So anyways, I'm bracing myself for his question of why I didn't sign it. I have no idea. I just didn't want too. I guess I could give him the answer he keeps giving me, "I'm sorry and I don't know".

AND if anyone is a Christian a going through this and having much conflict, I recommend the daily devotions called "divorce care 365 daily devotions" by steve grissom and kathy leonard. It is really good. I read more than 1 a day, but probably shouldn't. Anyways, my biggest conviction is my view of marriage through Christ. I may have said this before, but I feel that I am married till God releases me (please no flaming my post, each of us believe something a little differently). But I've just started the chapter in the book called "What does the owner manual says" And it explains the biblical view of marriage and how we (those who didn't get to make the decision) feel about what has been done in the eyes of the Lord. Really good stuff. It made me write a 2 page entry in my journal last night, along with a prayer to the Lord. Good stuff! Highly recommended. I do admit though, I skipped ahead to the section on dating and not sure I completely agree with everything. It says stastically you should wait 1 year for every 4 that you were married before getting into another relationship ... that would be 5 years for me! Eeekk ... I don't see myself single that long, not that I'm ready to jump now, but I was thinking more a long the lines of 3 years.....