Feeling sick to my stomach with worry over telling the kids today.

If I keep myself distracted or take some deep breaths, I can get past the bad moment without actually starting to cry.

I had this idea playing in my head of asking H one more time, are you SURE you want this? And Why? I've found that I have forgiveness in me for every hurt I've felt from him over the past 20+ years, but I don't know how I'll be able to forgive him for hurting our kids.

I know they will be as fine as possible. I know this isn't as bad as cutting off their limbs or throwing them into the streets. But I just am not convinced it is necessary to do this.

Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.