Hi everyone thank you for your responses. So much love on this forum I get overwhelmed sometimes (((())))

I have to admit that I feel H is being nice because I think he wants something. I think it's a butter- up for the big D talk. I know he is not happy- nothing to do with me in reality- but if he is still looking externally then it's going to be me.

He has expressed recently several times that he is not looking forward to work. He is frustrated with work. He sighs a lot. He is restless.

Today he told me that he doesn't do anything anymore. He either goes home to sleep or has a few drinks and sleeps.

When I got home from work today he was here and on the phone. I know it was a woman by his tone of voice. Of course I assume OW which does not shock me but then he was so cold with me afterwards. No eye contact etc.

Anyway I took myself to my room.

Then later I went to the kitchen and he was in there making food for the kids as their friends. He became chatty again very engaged in the food making and asking me about the rice blah blah.

He is planning to go to dubai in jan to strt checking things out. Things will be clearer then I suspect about his true intentions.

I know this post is all about him. Just needed to let out what I have been observing because I need to stay grounded and focused on me and my path. He is at the same time more 'with us ' but also not.

Keep me focused my friends. It could be nothing, it could be the calm before the storm but I need to stay on my blanket.

Love you all


TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home