It sounds really rough. Do you know how S14 is taking it? I agree with labug about detaching from your H. You don't want to give him or OW any of your precious head space.
Take care, Melissa. Please keep updating if you get the chance. I'm thinking of you.
Me: 51 H: 52 T: 23 yrs M: 19 yrs S18, D16, S14 (special needs) PA: 2003/2004 Piecing: 2004 on Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012
