Wendylon, I have two comments: 1. Are you completely sure your H will not have his finances in order in Jan? I mean, 100% sure? If not, then think maybe he will, and express confidence in this. If he doesn't do it, then ask yourself if this behavior is a deal breaker. 2. You wrote your reasons to not get D. I think the most important reason should be that you're in love with your H and want him in your life-always. All other reasons-children, finances, etc. will not support a healthy marriage. At least that's my take on it. I know a lot of people stay married bc of other reasons, but I doubt they're happy. You don't have to live an ordinary life. You want to be happy and live and extraordinary life. Some food for thought.
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