Yesterday we went to the city to see the 9/11 memorial and the Rockefellar Christmas tree with her parents, she is distant and condisending to me the whole day and we come home her girlfriend Genine called and now we are getting to a new level because she was talking about Raul right in front of me and her parents -- she said she if I am gonna have a relationship with him it has to be more than that -- RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME AND HER PARENTS AND MY SON !!! -- She then starts discussing going out New Years Eve to see this band the Benjamins (Genine is in love with the lead singer) she said maybe the lead singer will finally give Genine a big kiss on NY's eve - open marriages so wonderful.
I go to the gym this morning -- I get home - she tells me that the 401K money she borrowed has to be penilized because she stopped working there and can't pay it back via payments -- but of course I have to be understanding kind and loving -- I said why are you screaming at me - I said did I do this -- she said no but I am pissed --- I am fuming about all this how do I reward her - I go and get her cigarettes this morning cuz she is not dressed -- what is the matter with me -- I continue to be an [censored] -- But I try to be a husband only a fool would leave --
Being detached and unreactive is very hard let me tell you --
Thank God I am swamped at work so I will be busy today with that.
If someone decides there is no goodness in you they won't be able to see it. I'll take a BLT over a MLC anyday !!!
