He's Just Not That Into You - The Sequel

[mamabird]

It's raining, and the power keeps cycling on and off tonight. Every time that happens I wake up because our printer makes a lot of noise when it turns on and of course I'm stuck in this dumb guest room/office.

After our "discussion" last night, I'm not feeling like anything got resolved. H refuses to budge. I'm totally angry and resentful that he refuses to give me the benefit of the doubt on any of this. I think it's BS and more of a punishment. I wish I could just walk because at this point I'm really fed up and it's just not fair.

This is why I need a coach - I have been trying to DB since summer and I still feel so stuck.

I'm specifically frustrated because I feel like I'm trying and trying and working and working and he refuses to acknowledge any of it as change or progress. He wants to live in the past and let the past be his compass. Any time I do something "wrong" it's further evidence to him that "we're not compatible." Any time I do something "right" it's not to be trusted. It really feels like there is no way to get out of this cycle because he's out to prove to himself that he's justified in getting a D, so he insists on seeing the world this way.

There is no way to win this game.