I simply thought you meant I was doing something to hinder H.
And you're right about there being no cost to dreaming and thinking. I should try to do more of that I suppose, try to look beyond day to day survival.
And I am "waiting" more or less. Just trying to make sure that the wait doesn't destroy more of me.
Setting "boundaries" is not what I am good at. Not been my habit. H is VERY controlling. When I state my case he tells me if I can't continue as he wishes, then I can leave. But there's no place for me to go. And if he leaves, I can't pay the bills. I feel like I am on a leash.
My response to you seems to have upset you. Not what I meant at all. I just can't at the moment see how to do things differently.
I do have the feeling that the sands are shifting - H's casino trips are becoming more frequent, he talks with his parents more often and I know he wants to go there more often.
So "something" is bound to change. And at this point I'd have to say that it will be for the better, because it seems pretty grim as is. Though I suppose it could always get worse and I'd best be careful what I ask for.
Sorry again for venting my frustrations in your direction.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
and I'd best be careful what I ask for.
