The green green grass of home. (Part 2 )

[Soul.Searching]

So we ( The children and I) put half of our inside decorations up today. We decorated our tree. It's a real one that a family member got for us. I pulled in the drive way after work and it was standing near the front door.
I brought it inside with a little bit if difficulty but I managed.

I found the kids to be a little.,, well snotty lol
Mainly S8. He complained that I did part of the roof the same every year. He complained that he wanted a fake tree and not a real one. ( some years we have real, others we have fake.) he complained that he hated the smell.

D9 complained a little and they both fought. Mainly because S was not letting D do much.

He told me he didn't hardly decorate the tree at their fathers.

I guess even though his not verbalizing it, he is struggling with it all.
It's a strange feeling tonight. Lights on the tree flashing away, the smell of Christmas.
I guess I was really fearing this month for a while. Now it's here and it's not so bad. It's strange and different. Kind of eerie but also kind of numb.

We can and will get through this.

H told the kids that he will be getting a motel room down here, so they can go there to open their pressents from Santa. Hmmm, guess his not coming here to do them then.
Also I realized today that no one from H's family has asked for money for Christmas lunch. (Everone always chips in.) so I guess I am no longer invited there.
Ready or not, here it comes....