Making it work, for me

[sweetbabyred]

Still no response from H about the money he owes me. I'll give him another day or two and then let him know that I'll have to cancel his car insurance if he doesn't pay. H may end up canceling my phone, so this could be interesting.

I might actually see H tomorrow. We both were scheduled for dentist appointments in the morning and I'm not sure if he canceled his. I hope that he's either canceled or shows up. If he no-shows and I have to explain his behavior, I'll be annoyed.

Best case would be that he does show up and has a check for me with at least some of the money he owes and my Christmas ornaments. I'm not going to hold my breath for that.

I'm going to make sure I look awesome first thing in the morning just in case he does make it. Can't hurt to let him see what he's missing. I know I'm better than a 22 year old Hooters girl and I need to act like it.

I talked with MIL this evening and I think something is up with H. She just sounded a little off. I have a pretty good sense for these things, so I'm a little concerned. I just hope he's not crazy enough to be engaged or have gotten OW pregnant when he hasn't even filed for D.

I can't do anything about it anyway, so I'm just going to finish up my school projects and do what I need to do. I've only seen H once, for about 10 seconds, in the last two months and only had one phone conversation during that time too, so I know what life will be like without H.

I'm under no illusions that we'll be friends, but I do want access to SS11 if he's in town for Christmas. And I do hope that he'll have the decency to pay off his obligations to me at the very least, but I don't know this man at all anymore, so I'm not counting on it.

I just need to learn how to move on without expecting it, but I will not continue to pay for the car insurance or allow him access to the one last joint credit card if he won't pay off his current obligations.