Good for you! See, you can do it when you set your mind to it.
I've wanted to ask you something about your weight. You've lost five pant sizes! That's a lot! Would you tell us how much you weighed at your heaviest?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
Two years ago I went on HCG and went from 280 down to 219. As soon as I stopped I went back to my old habits and went up to 258 over a year long period. In September I joined a gym and started watching calorie intake. I have bulked up my arms and chest, and I am now at 205. Friday I got with the gyms personal trainer and he helped me setup a training plan to get me down to 170 and flatten my stomach.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
Focus on you first of all. Be a man only a fool would want to leave.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
I am wondering if I want her back for the right reasons. I have my doubts whether she will stop sneaking around behind my back. I don't know if her obsession with having sex with others will stop. I wonder if I want her back so bad is because I am afraid to be alone and start over. I wonder if I am afraid to raise a child by myself, and I don't think I can do it alone. I am wondering whether having her back will be the best thing for my daughter, or if it will do more damage.
Sorry being depressed today, didn't get much sleep last night and I have a full day of classes.
Those are important things for you to figure out. You should not take direction in life based on fear. Become strong enough to handle anything. You were never guaranteed not to raise your child alone, there just aren't guarantees in life.
Build yourself back up, grow your confidence and strength. Be a complete person for her to come back to...if you want her back at that point. There are no other good options right now.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.