Panic mode set in this morning. I hate waking up with that feeling. I have been reading DR, but am losing my patience at times. If he thinks I still want a divorce, I feel like the work I am doing is for nothing. I know I feel better about myself and have been creating a better home life for my daughter, so it's not for nothing, but I just want to unload on him sometimes. Tell him I don't want a divorce, etc. Do I tell him that at some point, while setting my boundaries?
The thing is, I don't think he'll ever leave unless I am the one to end it and not because he can live with me and have the OW. I've been in this position with him before, no other person involved, where he has threatened leaving and never does.
Yes, I need to set the boundary I stated earlier, but it blew up in my face before. As soon as he gets defensive, which he always does, I let my emotions get to me and I get defensive. I want to write him an email instead. Is that appropriate and do I make it clear that I don't want a divorce or just let my actions speak for me?
Thanks, mostly just needed to vent, but appreciate any comments.
