I reread that, and I know many will point out that the fault is shared, and I realized that. I was trying to express that I played a role in our breakdown and many of the missteps that got us to this point, but I gave a good faith effort to repair the damage, to become a better partner, to be as humble and open as possible, and another person in H's place could have repaired this based on how I've been. So the ultimate failure of it, is in my view, his fault. For being a person who can't express emotion, who won't learn to relate with me, who won't speak his mind, who just doesn't want to be with me. It may be out of his control, but I believe I'm the only one of us two who made a good faith effort.


Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.