Having a bit of an off day today. Cleaning like a mad woman for the holidays so keeping busy.
He called and left a message two nights ago. He sounded so very, very sad. I have not returned the call yet partly because normally I would return it promptly the next night which would mean a 180 for me and partly because I am not really ready to talk.
I don't know why the hardest thing for me to hear was that OW was the only friend fighting for our friendship but that completely gutted me. Like he was only in touch because she said so. Like it was them against me. Great OW tactic, for sure! Maybe it wasn't until that moment that I truly believed how firmly he was in her camp. I believe it now.
I have found rereading the Going Dark links very helpful in starting with a beginner's mind. And in realizing what a long process this is going to be whether we end up together or not.
So, I will return the call when I am ready and reread the Rules before I do.
