Next Step, Moving On

[dorightman]

It's been awhile since I last posted. A lot has changed. Things were deteriorating the longer I stayed n the house, I wasn't able to detach while being in the house and I inevitably reacted emotionally to w when she instigated arguments or attacked me verbally. When she started using words like harassment , I decided I needed to get out of the house because she was heading down a very dark road not based on reality, but based on her own imagined fears. I also think that she may have gone down this road to force me out, anyways I moved to a friends house temporarily.
I think it was the best thing to do in my sitch because I tried for 3 months with mc and things just kept getting worse. Definaty a cheese less tunnel.
Since I left w has been nicer to me, texting me that she knows what a sacra ice Im making and that it is already helping her release her defensiveness and begin to access her true emotions. This weekend she is ok with me staying at the house with the kids. I'am telling her that I want to coparent with her, as my DB coach told me. I'am not speaking about our R, and I'am not putting any pressure on her, just trying to be a helpful friend.
I know this will be a long process, and I know I'am not supposed to have Any expectations, but I do love her and hope that the time and space will help her come around combined with me being a good friend and coparent.