Changing you is the goal of DB and it that's not a goal for you (I've read your thread and it sounds like it may be, but who knows) then you might get nothing from this site and the experience.

It's up to you and as I said, your goals. I read that your father said "If you can't change the situation, change you."

Good advice and that's at the heart of DBing because changing you changes the situation.

You were together for 15 years, things won't change over night. The best advice it to stop worrying about "when" and live today.

If you're sad, get out and do something that makes you happy.

What are you doing for you to GAL?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss