Well thought I'd post. Some serious things have been going on the past week. Though it's not good things, Im thankful for them. It reminds me just how insignificant XH's MLC is, and just a reminder of what's most important and what I prioritize in my life.
For starters, I had our 20 year old dog euthanized today. I'ts been a decision I've known was coming along all this last year. But I made the choice to let her live her life out as long as she happily and comfortably could. It was clear 2 weeks ago the end was near, but I had hoped she could go peacefully at home. Unfortuneatly it was clear she was pretty miserable so today the girls and I took her in. It was one hard good bye, but a relief too. I was there with her, and brought her home to bury in our yard.
We got news that the girls cousin has been hospitalized due to kidney failure and will be put on the transplant list and getting a new kidney sometime after the 1st of the year. Until now it's dialysis daily. This was a suprise because it wasn't suspected she had kidney disease. This was a huge blow to us and we're so worried.
We made ourselves buck up and go to a girl scout meeting that was family oriented with a dinner and projects. It was really fun to socialize with some of the mom's while the girls prepared dinner for us!
I see Xh through different glasses now.... or should I say no longer with rose colored glasses. He's pulled some things the past few weeks that are assinine. I've noticed a Huge CHANGE in myself lately. I take note to the things he says and does, and realize a year ago, and years before then if he did such a thing I'd be shaking in my boots out of fear and dread that he would with hold love and affection because I did something "wrong" and upset him. I would worry he wouldn't ever speak to me again.
Today......I just am awestruck of how this man truly is now. The things that he did the past year and still to this day that used to devastate me, now just are an irrittion! I forget about it and move on with better, more important, and more interesting things for the day!
The newest one. He's beem commenting to the girls ONLY that he's going to have to cancell the Netflix acct for months now. I just figured when he did, I'd start paying it myself, but until then he can still pay it. So of course after the Thanksgiving "rejection" he felt, he puposely didn' pay the account so it would be cancelled. D10 mentioned it to him this week. His response " WEll you have to pay for it yourself now".
Im just irritated because I guess I still do have a few expectations....that he actually be normal and polite. But see I expect this from everyone. I guess XH is special! He doesn't need to be considerate or polite! He's in MLC! If this was such and issue he couldve told me personally at any time " Im sorry but I will be cancelling the Netflix account." But he didn't say anything, we find it cancelled, though not suprised and then he tells D10 she needs to pay for it herself..... LOL.
It's 8.00 a month. I can pay it.
If his passive aggressive ways are to punish us, well so sad, too bad. He can "punish" all he wants to.
His actions may frustrate us at times, but really don't hold any water with us anymore.
What I wonder is if as time goes by, when he see's that his threats and behavior's make no impact on us, is if he'll lose all interest in his children and eventually drift out of their lives, or if he'll just become more irate and try to cause more problems.
Oh well, pull up the chair and watch the show I guess!
