NLW - I was really thrown back to think that my posts are having an impact on anyone, I thought I was starting to hear crickets. I makes me feel so good to know that my words are being helpful.
Your right my H's telltales make for good posts because it seems more often S don't reveal that much about what's in there mind. I didn't realize it could be good insight.
He says he speaks out to make sure I understand it's not about me. Your right we have to understand how they feel and then letting go is a little easier.
Oh, those college yrs! I guess I'm in for a ride because that's when he fell from grace as soon as he found it, from church, to drinking, to homeless in his car at 20. He's said he started drinking 3 wks ago, and is living in his car even when in my driveway.
Yesterday he mentioned God, his defiance toward him and his rebellion. So yea, right on cue! This will be the time when he (as the past plays out) dropped out and gave in to the idea of being a hard working carpenter. We will see when the next curtain is pulled back.
Funny when I read your posts your write stxh and I kept reading it as stupid xing (f-ing) H. Oh well not to far from the truth.
Thank you so much for posting...I am here almost everyday as my life unravels, you are strong also, remember yours was the very first posts I related to that brought me out of myself, my grief, to start my own thread.
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
