Thanks guys for helping keep me grounded. Have no expectations is always good to remember because you never know what they will through at you.
On here quickly tonight to vent a little so I don't say anything to W later. So she gets home from work while I was setting up movie to watch (MIB3) and asks if she can watch with me. I said sure and asked how her day was. She talked more then I expected complaining about things mostly and I just listened and sympathized with the tough cases and 14 hour day. She then starting venting about one of her old best friends (pre BD). She was complaining to me that her friend still thought D was a bad idea and was telling W her opinions. She was also telling her how bad it will be on kids, especially D7 and said she's guessing D7 was already suspicious. W said D7 didn't know anything and is fine and we were telling her early next year. She just kept talking about how wrong her friend was. It took every ounce of fortitude that I had to keep quiet and not say anything about us or how I was really feeling. I actually managed to show a little support for W saying how friend is strong willed and can be judgmental. Has my W forgotten I'm the one she's wanting to D??? I don't want the F'n D!!! Does she not know what she's putting me through emotionally? She either is tired and had a small lapse in judgement or she's believing my rant a couple weeks ago and thinks I want the D also and am fine with it. WTF is going on? Maybe my 'as if' behavior is working but I don't want to hear her talk about it. Thankfully she went to get comfy clothes on before movie so I have time to write this and relax a bit so I hopefully don't say or do anything stupid. Reading Sandi's 180's (for the 100th time) after I post this.
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
