okay update it feels like we are moving toward more final and not less He got his bonus yesterday and i took my part of it we talked and he said he might want to sublet out our place to save money which i agree to when we moved to nyc we didn't have the money for a deposit so my dad gave us the money.
I have been trying really hard now to engage in any drama or push him away in anyway. but my dad was mad and said there was no way he was going to let him sublet and be left holding the bag. to go in and get his money back right now. so i did because i don't know what to do i am making dollars a hour and staying at his house why i get back on my feet.
what am i suppose to say so i took the money and called my h to let him know he flipped out said he been thinking about getting back together but now it was done he was going to get a expensive divorce attorney and fight me on it. etc. etc. then he said he had been thinking about paying for the divorce in full which makes me feel like he was emotionally manipulating me to get the money back i don't want to push him away
but i also don't want to be stupid and leave my self in a financially bad place. he hadn't really talked to me in 2 weeks before all of this. he's been going out every night i mean i feel bad that he says he needs the money but he makes six figures i am the one who got dumped without a job because i moved for him and really has no money.
no one told him to go out and spend a [censored] load at bars once i left. I really love I'm though and want to be with him i don't know what to do.
m: 32 H:33 T:7 M:4
7/12 says he might want out 8/12 find out about ow he wants a D 9/12 he says he loves me not here wants me back 9/12 he pull away 11/12 still separated
