Is It really Worth it?

[Ready2Quit]

I think I have started to detach. I am a pretty picky when it comes to my house and car, all very clean and neat, I enjoy having a clean house so it really does not bother me to clean it. I told H a few days ago that I wanted to stop being responsible for everything around here. I wanted him to pay the bills, make sure groceries are bought the cat and dog have food, when S17 or S20 need something they are going to have to go to him and to make sure house is cleaned up.

He told me that he would "get rid" of the cats and dog, he would give the kids money and tell them to find something to eat, he was not going to the grocery and if he had too, he would pay the bills. I have not done anything for a few days, I told him I was going shopping last night after work and I went to my sister's and washed my work clothes since the washing machine bit the dust. I usally always clean the kitchen up at night make sure dishes are put up, clean out litter box, make sure dog and cat have food, etc. I vaccum every day since I have two cats and a dog. I have not pulled the vaccum out in a week. I didn't even make the bed for two days so far, and I don't even care. H always said that I would never be able to last long when it came to things like that, but the more I think about it, the more I don't care what happens.

Our washing macahine bit the dust two days ago, I would have already had a new one bought and delivered by now. I told him yesterday to go pick one out and figure out how to pay for it. H said no, you need to pick it out, I told him I didn't care what he got, just go get something. He looked at me and said "what is the matter with you". WTF, whats the matter with me are you kidding me, I am not the one with OW on the side to play with and a wife that takes care of the house, kids, bills, etc. I want his life. Nothing to worry about and two women to cater to him. I am done with it, I am at my end. after seeing that message to OW on Wednesday, the last light I had for him has died and I don't even want to try anymore, not even for my kids sake. I am waving the white flag, I am done. Sadly I am done.