" the evidence of my failure. A failure which consequnces makes my life really not enjoyable anymore, if worth living at all. Thus why I was reluctant in exposing the whole world what is so intimately painful in my innermost being."
PRIDE.
A real man recognizes and learns from his mistakes. Taking on personal responsibility is the first step. You have a long way to go on that because you're still wanting her to feel punished for a situation that you caused.
"she didn't have to face ANY of the consequences of separation yet. She has her family, her studies, her part-time job, her friends, parent's car, her city, her country, her language, and the son. The "sadness" of losing me is nothing as near as the anguish nightmare that I had to go through, and which has traumatized me for life,"
Perfect example.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
