W filed, I think we can make it work - what to do?

[Spartan]

Not much to update over last couple days. A lot of the same which I guess is a good thing??? Continuing my 180's with a little more small talk with W. Not a peep about R from wife but she's telling me more about her work/ family and things she's having to deal with and I'm being a better listener. I'm personally feeling pretty good and some of the changes are coming more naturally. I'm also working out like crazy and feel like I'm in best shape of my life. She's also been around more, not picking up extra work shifts or going out with friends. In fact last night she was going out after work and ended up at home by 7:00 because "she wanted to go with us to daughters swimming class". Kind of messed up my night of Black Ops but it's all good .

The no touching/ kissing/ ML is still in affect. Little torn on that, emotionally it might be weird and not sure I'm ready but physically I'm pretty much always ready. Don't judge me,I'm a guy. I won't push it though because it's always been a point of difference for us and it's a 180 I'm doing for R (admit that one might not be for me ). It's so weird but every night during the last week plus when I wake up (I've always been a terrible sleeper) we've been snuggling close to each other. No idea who instigates it and seems to be 50/50 by position but I admit to enjoying it since physical touch is one of my LL's. Last night we were in full spoon??? Instead of moving away like I have been I said heck with it because I liked it and fell back asleep, woke up 2 hours later and we were in same position. Thought that was a little odd because my wife is a restless sleeper and low probability she made it 2 hours without waking up to move. Trying not to read into anything but it's hard not to a little. This is all so crazy, I really have no idea what's going on... We're in same house, starting to have some good small talk, having a blast with kids with more laughing then I can remember, sleeping in same bed with unconscious snuggling, and divorce papers filed and potentially months away from D-day with absolutely no R talk. Sometimes I think separation would make at least some things clearer.

I can feel my patience starting to run low on the zero talk about us. I haven't let on to her at all but it's driving me crazy. I figure we have our initial Friend of the Court meeting on 12/11 so something has to be discussed there. It will likely be bad and I'm already prepping to not be too disappointed. I still have no plans to discuss R until she says something.

I'm also still up in the air on the cruise and what to do. While we were at swimming last night she reminded me that she had a doctor appointment next Monday so I'd need to get dinner for kids. I told her I remembered and no problem. My son was on my lap playing and not thinking at all I said 'isn't there something else I'm supposed to do on Monday' and she responded with that was day cruise payment was due. I should have started discussion about it but it kind of caught me off guard. All I said was the airfare had already been paid and left it out there. She didn't respond and there was awkward silence for a few minutes. She's so bullheaded she may never say anything. I was a little surprised she spit out payment due date immediately so it's obviously on her mind. Since I paid airfare a few months back I'll likely just pay for cruise and see what happens. I kind of feel like I missed an opportunity to open a discussion with her yesterday but I don't want to instigate and son was there being his normal high energy 4 year old self so likely wouldn't have been productive.