3 Years after D-Day, part 2. Separated 9 Months.

[Am I Too Late]

It's now been 9 days since any contact from my W, even to our S-9.

I really feel that the new AD meds, named Pristique, is doing some good. For over 3 years in a row, my thoughts had continued to be overwhelming, but now are still there, but without feeling like they take me over.

I got my S back on schedule for school after the 9 day Thanksgiving Holiday break. Last week, i met with his Teacher for P-T conference. His timed math tests and reading facts scores went down significantly since the beginning of the school year.

Yesterday i received a call from a marriage weekend retreat that o inquired about some time ago and it hurts to hear how other couples with much worse initial circumstances healed their M. That's not for us, plus too expensive and too far.

I did deliver a real good bid yesterday for a decent sized exterior renovation job, but the property owner wants to wait till spring time to decide.

For the 1st time in a while, i have gone the entire week without going out of my way to find out anything about my W. It does sadden me very much though, on hoe a mom can desert her only child, both physically and emotionally. I know, that's on her, not me, but it still is disappointing to me for our S.

I have things to clean up at my property for sale over the weekend, so i should be kept busy.

Just keeping myself focussed on moving forward seems so bleak right now because of how i became unable to think about anything other than keeping our M and family together, all for naught now it seems. Get out of myself and do something positive. Keep moving forward. Get something done.

Time to go.

Ed