This is just some journaling. I have been really thinking about what detachment, dropping the rope, and moving on means to me. I think that true detachment is when you finally stop worrying about your spouse. You stop wondering where they are, who they are with, and what they think about you. You stop wondering if they are dealing with there own faults, and mistakes that have contributed to your sitch.
Dropping the rope to me means, that you are actually ready to move on. Your heart is back open for business to anyone, not just your spouse. More importantly is that you convey this without having to tell anyone. It will be written on your face, and in the way you carry yourself. It will be in the glow of self-confidence that you have finally fully regained regained.
And moving on is just that, you have moved on. More than just dating though. You have actually found yourself committed to someone else. For awhile all I could think about finding someone else, like I thought I was ready for that. I have now come to accept I am not even close to ready.
So after 6 months I feel I am approaching true detachment. I think that even with detachment there will still be times that something could be said that strikes a nerve. Heck, you could have a starnger say something to you that may really bother you, because they got lucky and found a weak spot. It is at these moments that our detachment will allow us to have a positive reaction to those zingers.
Anyway I know there is still a long road ahead. It feels good knowing that I am ready for the journey.
Me 37/W 32 S 5 D 4 ILYBNILWY 5/12 Sep 8/12 Starting to find myself 11/12 on
