Trying really hard to be Thankful today...

[Sweetbriar]

Turtle,

I agree that we need to channel our energy into our own happiness and MOST days, I can honestly say that I do that. The thing is...it only takes one stupid thing to make me fall apart. I guess the good news is that when I do have a sobbing break down, it only last a few minutes and then I can regroup and go on. I used to let it affect me for hours, days and sometimes an entire weekend.

I dont know how you are able to see your H as much as you do...I just cannot even look at mine anymore. I do see him VERY occasionally and it still upsets me. I am far from detached! I just find that if I dont see him, that I do better. I also do better not talking or texting him. I should have done that a long ago! (yes, I know so many on here advised of it and once I did it, its been better!)

I think I know that OW is not what its all about...but its hard to not think of her and compare what they have to what he had. H is soooo deep into selfishness right now its unreal. It really baffles me on a regular basis with the things he comes up with...its almost comical!

I wish that my H cared more about his kids. It seems from your posts that your H still is very involved and even allows a bit of flirting between the 2 of you! I miss that so much!

My H is VERY DEPRESSED...there is NO DOUBT...just the way he looks and acts and the things he says...I hope that he can get better...at least for his kids sake!

Thanks for keeping up with me...I appreciate the advice and comments. My kids bring a smile to my face everyday! And when my baby kicks...lots of smiles for that too! I cannot wait until he is born and I can hold him....although I dont know what Im going to do with a boy!!!! I have 2 drama queen girls:) Looks like boys is all you know...maybe in 3 months I will be on here asking for baby boy advice for the real baby and not the man baby that I married!!! :):):):) Made myself smile!