I'll do my best to keep the beginner's mind on all accounts. Easier said than done.
Tori, I would obviously enjoy being in the piecing stage 100%, she has obviously flip flopped a bit, yet our R is still an option so that is a good thing. As far as her honesty, you are correct, only she knows. I am thankful though that she did share at least a good amount re: texting, etc. The IC appt has of course taken longer than it should. I'm putting most of that on W's varying reasons to stall (ultimately doesn't want to have face her past demons, recent actions - not mindreading as she has consistently said she's afraid of becoming an emotional mess and prefers to run from difficult things rather than deal with).
Journal entry kind of.... This "false start" has helped me realize I'm not as far along independently as I need to be. Relying too much on W. Is that somewhat a part of this process? This Saturday is D11's bday party. It was supposed to be on Friday, but has been changed to Sat, the same night I have an "ugly Christmas sweater party" to go to. I'm obviously going to the party for awhile (at a skating rink), but feel weird leaving early to go GAL. That and I simply feel weird now GAL w/o W due to her recent 50 - 100% commitment to the R. Normal or not? Need some help on figuring out normalcy of my thoughts / emotions or I am doing things wrong?
