Hello! 20 year marriage teetering... (part II)

[Spartan]

AS - Thanks for update, I've been wondering how you were doing the last few days regarding your W's confusion comment. I've read your entire sitch and felt like I knew where you were at; when I read about 'her confusion' I wondered how it would affect you. Sounds like it has you spinning which is exactly how I would react after everything you've done and been through.

I looked into her eyes and wow, my love for her is definitely still there. Her eyes just looked so beautiful. I don't know if she did it on purpose, but she raised her hand up and had the backs of her fingers against my arm and left them there, and her touch was like an electrical shock. Crazy. Of course she may be feeling nothing, or she may be feeling something and fighting those feelings because she's still trying to convince herself she's done, I just don't know. But I've got to give it more time. Someone please loan me some patience!!!

That's awesome that you still have feelings for her even with all the detachment. Shows there still is hope. As you've told many of us on here just remember to take it VERY slow and don't try to figure her out or guess how she's feeling. What you've been doing is obviously working for you (and maybe for R) so keep at it. I know I would be reading into everything and thinking things have turned the corner and you or one of the other vets would hit me with a 2x4 but you already know that

I just have to be careful that I don't get excited when I see some small sign because I have a tendency to read hope into things that may in fact not mean anything.