See good days bad days. today is one of those middle of the road days. Just sitting at work trying to figure out a few things.
1- should i get WAW a gift for xmass?
2- Why is she so unwilling to take the time to talk (She always said she wants to talk even in one email she said she was dieing to beable to talk to me)?
not sure what happen but the lst post i was not done with but some how got posted. lol
3-it seems like and this is just a feeling from my gutt that she is still very upset for whatever reason. could be that i still talk to her mom and brother and his family. my step daughter i talk to as well. it is not me going to them they come to me.
4- with the above being said im in the middle of the road with if i should just stop reaching out to WAW and just let her contact me? It just took some time to gain what i have even if it is a small amount of texting..
well here goes the roller coster ride again. Im doing the best I can to keep busy today and working hard at work to keep my head from spinning. I'm not that bad but here is my problem.
Ok so all i realy want to do is send an email or text to WAW telling her I love her and care for her. I am not begging you to come back or anything im just telling you how I feel.
That is what i want to send but have now and just fighting off the thought of doing it. I know it may not be good to send. But sometime I just feel that things need to be said no mtter what it is.
Just send it and see what happens. At least the aching feeling of needing to reach out to her will be gone.
Eventually you might consider telling her that while you love her, you're done waiting for her. What is she going to do? Only you can decide when the time for this is right, if ever.
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
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Just send it and see what happens. At least the aching feeling of needing to reach out to her will be gone.
Eventually you might consider telling her that while you love her, you're done waiting for her. What is she going to do? Only you can decide when the time for this is right, if ever.
So true , Just send and see what happens. I can tell you that she will not respond im sure. But I'm just going to work past this feeling today. this too will pass..
But you realy do have a point that at some point i will send that 2nd message you said. Im done waiting for you. see what happens.
Think about it what is the worst that can happen im in the same spot i am not but with the deffinet answer if she says fine im done too...
One thing i can say is that me and my step daughter talk all the time on face book. we get along very well. and to top it off she was one of the reason my WAW said she had a problem with.
OK guys and gals I did it i was fighting with the feeling i had to just say "i love you" to my WAW.
The text was this "Just wanted to say Hi also, I love you. just sharing and sorry ir me saying it hurt u.."
So I sent this and i was not thinking i would get anything back from her at all. But I did. She replied say "Hello i'm working now have been all weekend. talk soon"
then i replied "np ws just sharing thts all.."
So I'm not sure how to take any of that at all. but i was shocked that she even replied..ALso she has been saying that we will talk for months now. I feel so bad that she has to work almost every day to make ends meet and to top it off christmass is here and it was 90% of the money came from me for her kids.
If you guys pray i ask the you pray for a merical here
DID i do wrong here i just could not fight that feeling any longer about sending the text. I prayed and prayed and asked the feeling to stop so i took it as if i was to send it ....
well just had session with my couch and found what i did was not a bad thing. It was more of a good sign and gave us more insight and i have some things I need to work on and i need to reply to the text in some way. She told me how to but this was all good. I just have to asj God for help and the strenght in what i need to say.....
well i was asked by the couch to reply to the text message so I am going to put this out there for feedback.
The text from the WAW after i told her I love her was this. "Hello, I'm working now, Have been all weekend. Talk soon." SO my responce is looking like this but not final yet.
"I know you may have alot to talk about with our marrage and have had for a long time. I want you to know that I'm here and I'm ready to listen to what you have to say. I ask that you please do not hold back anything as I am ready to listin to it all.. I know you are very busy and work all the time so all i can say is just tell me any time any place were you want to talk and I will be there... I will say it again that I am ready to listen to what you have to say. no matter what it may be... I'm all ears!!!"
OK so what do you guys think ?? Please any input would be good. Not sure when I will send this as I need to pray over it for a little. God Has help in the past and I know he will now.
