Update: Feeling awful about myself. Just plain horrible. I did some major thinking and mulling everything over and one thing for sure is... I do not want to walk away. This all comes down to trust and my fear of him breaking it again.
I also know that I am still angry with him. Even a year later. Really, is that healthy? Normal? I don't think it is. I'm even angry with myself.
He told me the other day that he will not give up on me. When he said he would not give up, it triggered something in me to see that he is truly committed. But still, I cannot trust it. And this is where I feel like a failure, because it's been a year and I should be able to go forward.
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Angel, I think it's great your husband openly told you about ex-ow coming to town, etc. His honesty with you must feel good. It is when things are hidden that it's scary.
How do you feel inside? How long did it take you to be able to trust again after the bomb drop?
Thank you for linking me, and I'll definitely give the site a read through.
