The green green grass of home. (Part 2 )

[Soul.Searching]

Well, H end up sending me a message saying he will take the kids this weekend but that they wont be able to set up the tree because he does not have the money for decorations. I replied and said "okay"
He sent me a few more and I finally replied. His text were getting nastier and nastier. I sent him some back validating some things, telling him I was sorry he felt that way and I also sent some truths, too. At one stage he said he was still paying off our debt.

I replied and said "Yes it was our debt because we were together but what part of it was mine exactly? I thought it was from X, Y and Z. If you think some of it is mine, let me know how and I will fix it up ASAP."

He replied and said "Yeah it's all my fault as usual"

Anyway I sent a text telling him I was not angry but was not going to argue with him. If he wanted to talk to me about it without arguing, then call me, if not that is fine.

He called about half an hour later and we talked. I told him that I will not be treated that way. I told him that I was not angry at all today, that he lost his s**t and he owned that not me. The convo finished on "good" terms.

He skyped the kids after that and I seem him. I missed him so much when I seen him. I don't know why after he carried on like a five year old all day, having a tantrum because he didn't get his own way.
His anger does not bother me anymore and I didn't let him know, that it affected me when he brought the kids in to it.

I've been feeling a little sad today. Saturday is the first and we always put up our decorations and tree on the first. The kids will be with H setting up their tree.

I've felt like crying half the night tonight and then I realized, I haven't cried for days. I don't know how many but it's been a few.

Life goes on,...