afa, I wouldn't read any R book around your W. I fear that if she saw you reading a R book, everything you did would be "because you read it in a book" and even tho that's a good place to learn things, it seems to take on a manipulative connotation.'
Things are pretty good for me, keep at this, eventually you do have a lot more good days than bad days!
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss