labug, I have to admit. I struggle with saying what I want. I try to be nice. I have recognized this. And when I get upset I do a classic avoid, ignore thing instead of talk.

I think it stems from a lot of insecurity from my younger years. Deep down I think people will get mad at me I suppose and then not want to be around me. I guess thats whY i have trouble with boundaries. Ok..now I am crying. I didn't realize how much you hit home with your comment! lol (thats lol with tears...so I look crazy right now).

For me telling H I was uncomfortable was hard for me. Just that step was hard. Wow. I really have had very little respect for myself over the years I guess.

Wow. Another layer.. another step. Thank you Labug. :-) ((((()))))


Ruby----thank you my dear friend for your kind words and continuous support. You also made me LOL and spit out my coffee with

"Apparently you have lost what little is left of your ever loving mind..."

:-)

Love you all.

TPS
Me: 44 H: 42
M14 T17
S10 D7
10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month
21/04/12 H is 'DONE'
04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010)
July '14 H ends affair
May '15 H moves back home