I went home tonight. My wife has her AA meeting on Wednesdays, so I watch the girls and spend the night while my wife sleeps at a friends.
I was running late due to terrible traffic. When I walked in the door, my wife, needing to leave so she wouldnt be late, threw her arms around me and gave me a big hug good-bye. It felt so nice. So much like things used to when we were happy.
I know she did it more out of old habit, but it does make me wonder how deep her anger toward me is and if there might not be hope afterall. But if she asked me back tomorrow, I don't think I would go. I'm enjoying this time to focus on myself and my growth. I would go on a date with her, but not jump back in. I figure if I have a chance at saving this marriage, I have only one chance. And I'm not going to screw that up.
