The force is strong with this one.... hahahahaha.... ok, ok, sorry, the hrm humor had to throw in a jedi joke!
On a more serious note, I totally get what you mean about not wanting to "go through the motions" (through the motions is also a song by Matthew West, sorry useless info that randomly popped into my head, it's all part of my charm!) I feel the same way about the emotional connecting, laughter, working towards something,etc..... I'm going with the good things come to those who wait saying.... I don't know how long I will wait either, but I know for now that's what I'm being called to do, so I'm waiting, plus you know, I love the guy, even though I get hurt and angry, etc, I still love my H. So until I feel God calling me to do something else, I will wait, as patiently as I can, and when I can't I have you guys to help me through.
I think you are doing awesome, and no matter what you decide, I know you are a very wise man so it will be the best decision for you. *hugs to you T* Keep rockin'!!!
