Bklyn Gratitude

[BklynMom]

Just wanted to update you guys and get some of this off my chest.

H return from his trip to see his parents with the girls Sunday. Apparently it was a long drive and they had to double back before they started even got started.

When they got back H did a couple of things that felt angry to me.

I had packed them a bag with juice boxes and some snacks. He returned the bag to me untouched and said he had already packed snacks. It was odd because they drove 5 hr Sat and 5 hrs Sunday, there is no way you could ever pack enough snacks for a trip like that.

Then he called me after he dropped of the girls to tell that they ate McDonalds while on the road. It was weird because I think he told me that because he know I would never give them fast food but it was like he was searching for a reaction from me.

He didn't get a reaction, nor would the old me have cared if they stopped of McD while on the road.

Then he asked me if he could come by with our 2 blue kitchen chairs which are the only pieces of furniture he took with him when he left. I said sure. He knows that I don't need the chairs and in fact don't even have room for any more chairs. It felt so petty and really hurt my feelings. It was like he was throwing them in face, like he can't even bare to look at these 2 stupid chairs because it reminds him of the terrible me.

I am not a horrible person. Nor was I a horrible wife. I am a regular woman with emotions and sometimes I did not act nicely.

Finally he emails me later that night to ask that he be removed my extended family's Christmas party email list. This made me laugh. First of all I didn't even notice that he was accidentally on this email chain but he must have been so annoyed over the past week seeing emails in which my aunts discussed the menu of our annual party. Too funny.

Any way this couple of little things left me feeling very sad inside.

I feel like I am being abused and I keep going back for me. He tells me he hates me and I want to run into his arms. I am sick. I need to move on.

Also this week some unpleasant lawyer letters going back and forth. My proposal says he can't have week day over nights once the kids are school age because it is too disruptive.

His Lawyer keeps saying that my H doesn't want to be relegated to being a every other weekend dad, yet he NEVER calls, he misses parent teacher night, got very angry the weekend I need him to cover me while I worked, went to Atlanta for work for 4 months a month after he moved out and "is going out of town" (aka vacation with OW) for over half of his Christmas break from work.

He is choosing to be a part time dad not me.